I don't talk about my oldest daughter, MK, much. She is just almost the perfect child. I love her dearly (as I do both my girls) but I often feel like I neglect her. Her little sister needs so much of my time and demands so much attention that MK tends to just kinda hang in her room and do her own thing. She never acts out or gets jealous, but it makes me so sad. This is a huge battle within myself!
MK gets to go out and do alot more activities then her little sister. Her aunts take her to go do fun girly things, she gets to stay at my moms for a week in the summer, she goes to girl scout camps, she gets to go to birthday parties and sleepovers. But I feel like I don't get quality time with her.
How do I make more time for her? Ok, I can let her stay up a few minutes later at night...NOPE. My oldest always falls asleep super early and my youngest doesn't sleep! Most of the time I give up and just lay down with her and I fall asleep first. We don't have much of a babysitter willing to watch my youngest.
Sad momma
Monday, May 22, 2017
Monday, February 13, 2017
AMAZING THERAPY
I have currently decided against ABA therapy. I did alot of research and I kinda think this is not the right route for her at this time.
However, I met with a pediatric home health agency two weeks ago. They evaluated her pretty thoroughly. They established she is far enough behind on her milestones that she qualifies for occupational therapy. This will be under our deductible, so this stinks, but it is covered. Now we have speech twice a week and OT twice a week.
We established some goals and jumped right in. We have already done 3 sessions. Is it too early to be totally siked???? Cause I am!!!! She is already so much more open to trying new things. NEW THINGS!!!! YES NEW THINGS!!!!!!!! My child never tries anything new! She has meltdowns just at the suggestion of anything new or different. AND!!!! She has had only a few tantrums but even those aren't as bad as usual. We have not visited "meltdown city" even once. Why didn't I do this sooner?
Now if I can just figure out how to pay for this therapy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Twice a week at $104 a pop till we meet our deductible is met, YIKES!! How on earth do people afford this??
However, I met with a pediatric home health agency two weeks ago. They evaluated her pretty thoroughly. They established she is far enough behind on her milestones that she qualifies for occupational therapy. This will be under our deductible, so this stinks, but it is covered. Now we have speech twice a week and OT twice a week.
We established some goals and jumped right in. We have already done 3 sessions. Is it too early to be totally siked???? Cause I am!!!! She is already so much more open to trying new things. NEW THINGS!!!! YES NEW THINGS!!!!!!!! My child never tries anything new! She has meltdowns just at the suggestion of anything new or different. AND!!!! She has had only a few tantrums but even those aren't as bad as usual. We have not visited "meltdown city" even once. Why didn't I do this sooner?
Now if I can just figure out how to pay for this therapy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Twice a week at $104 a pop till we meet our deductible is met, YIKES!! How on earth do people afford this??
Wednesday, January 25, 2017
Autism Diagnosis??
The neurologist/psychologist diagnosed my daughter with Autism. I told him I wasn't sure I agreed with this diagnosis. He stated that she was high functioning and probably borderline but could definitely benefit from ABA therapy. And the only way to receive ABA therapy through insurance is to have a diagnosis of autism.
I went into see the doctor to diagnose her with maybe anxiety or some behavioral issues? I don't know what I was expecting but I am just really not satisfied with this diagnosis. I dunno if I am in denial or if my mother's intuition is correct.
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He had us put on the waiting list to have formal testing done. However, it is a year waiting list! And it will end up going to our deductible so I am not sure how we would pay for this? So I got with the school to have her tested there. Shorter waiting list and no out of pocket money!
Meanwhile as I am writing this.....my girl is in melt down city again! She got upset cause her sister put strawberries on her strawberry shortcake, instead of on the side. So she screamed, cried, and threw it in the trash. Before I could even get onto her for screaming in her sister's face or throwing perfectly good food away she ran to her room to cry and peed all over herself.
UGH I dunno
MARGARITA TIME!
I went into see the doctor to diagnose her with maybe anxiety or some behavioral issues? I don't know what I was expecting but I am just really not satisfied with this diagnosis. I dunno if I am in denial or if my mother's intuition is correct.
??????????????????????????????????????????????????
He had us put on the waiting list to have formal testing done. However, it is a year waiting list! And it will end up going to our deductible so I am not sure how we would pay for this? So I got with the school to have her tested there. Shorter waiting list and no out of pocket money!
Meanwhile as I am writing this.....my girl is in melt down city again! She got upset cause her sister put strawberries on her strawberry shortcake, instead of on the side. So she screamed, cried, and threw it in the trash. Before I could even get onto her for screaming in her sister's face or throwing perfectly good food away she ran to her room to cry and peed all over herself.
UGH I dunno
MARGARITA TIME!
Tuesday, January 17, 2017
melt down city
My youngest daughter (who I usually am writing about) is what you would call......a difficult child. However, she has certain charm about her that people tend to fall in love with. And of course my completely unbiased opinion that she is absolutely gorgeous. But literally people just seem drawn to her natural charisma and awkward quirkiness. And this seems great.....but OMG I just want to tell these people live with this little booger!!
She is stubborn and very strong willed, yet, still at 5 years old totally reliant on me. I still have to dress her, buckle her seat belt, wipe her butt, put her shoes and socks on her. All these little things she should know how to do. Her pediatrician says I should stand strong and not help her. DUDE I don't have time for a 30 min stand off every time we get in the car. She refuses to even try to do these things for herself. And me refusing to do it for her results in what we call melt down city, which includes uncontrollable crying and screaming and usually ends with her peeing all over herself!! I'm sorry if it makes me a bad mother, but I have to just buckle the damn seat belt for her!! I have to!
Not to mention she is abnormally obsessed with me. She eats, sleeps, pees, poops, and showers with me. Otherwise, its melt down city!! Separation anxiety?? I dunno but it seems like unhealthy behavior for a 5yr old. She still has frequent toddler like melt downs over the craziest things. She is very particular (or quirky)! She will only wear green fleece socks and only eat cereal out of her green bowl with the straw in it. Otherwise....yup....melt down city again! Then if you are out in public and someone accidentally touches her.....melt down city!! Then everyone in the grocery is staring at you like you are a terrible mother. Like "hey lady control that screaming kid" Her teacher everyday when I pick her says "umm Mrs. Cox she refused to participate again today."AND DO YOU HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS?!?!?! You are a professional right?? You tell me what to do cause I am out of ideas here!! You know what teacher you are lucky she doesn't have melt downs for you, then you really wouldn't know what to do!!
I could go on and on but the point of all this is.... I feel like a total failure as a mother because I just can't handle it. She can make me a nervous wreck. I have reached out to her pediatrician, but he says there is nothing wrong with her and that she is just a strong willed child AKA brat. I scheduled a conference with her teacher and speech therapist and principal. They mentioned a few different concerns and some of her quirky behaviors. And suggested we see a specialist. Well, I finally demanded to see a specialist to my pediatrician. We shall see..........Lets see what the future holds.
Sincerely yours,
prisoner at melt down city
She is stubborn and very strong willed, yet, still at 5 years old totally reliant on me. I still have to dress her, buckle her seat belt, wipe her butt, put her shoes and socks on her. All these little things she should know how to do. Her pediatrician says I should stand strong and not help her. DUDE I don't have time for a 30 min stand off every time we get in the car. She refuses to even try to do these things for herself. And me refusing to do it for her results in what we call melt down city, which includes uncontrollable crying and screaming and usually ends with her peeing all over herself!! I'm sorry if it makes me a bad mother, but I have to just buckle the damn seat belt for her!! I have to!
Not to mention she is abnormally obsessed with me. She eats, sleeps, pees, poops, and showers with me. Otherwise, its melt down city!! Separation anxiety?? I dunno but it seems like unhealthy behavior for a 5yr old. She still has frequent toddler like melt downs over the craziest things. She is very particular (or quirky)! She will only wear green fleece socks and only eat cereal out of her green bowl with the straw in it. Otherwise....yup....melt down city again! Then if you are out in public and someone accidentally touches her.....melt down city!! Then everyone in the grocery is staring at you like you are a terrible mother. Like "hey lady control that screaming kid" Her teacher everyday when I pick her says "umm Mrs. Cox she refused to participate again today."AND DO YOU HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS?!?!?! You are a professional right?? You tell me what to do cause I am out of ideas here!! You know what teacher you are lucky she doesn't have melt downs for you, then you really wouldn't know what to do!!
I could go on and on but the point of all this is.... I feel like a total failure as a mother because I just can't handle it. She can make me a nervous wreck. I have reached out to her pediatrician, but he says there is nothing wrong with her and that she is just a strong willed child AKA brat. I scheduled a conference with her teacher and speech therapist and principal. They mentioned a few different concerns and some of her quirky behaviors. And suggested we see a specialist. Well, I finally demanded to see a specialist to my pediatrician. We shall see..........Lets see what the future holds.
Sincerely yours,
prisoner at melt down city
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